#183
These two are the same age.
25 YEARS
@Lindy
I am a single
creature.
I wonder about too
much, daily.
I hear noises from
the woods,
birds speaking too early,
awake before dawn - I push the sounds
away.
I want your kisses
back
I want to not want anything more than
you
kissing me on my mouth, on my cheek -
no arms holding me - just the comfort
and harshness of your kiss.
I am alone with these
thoughts.
I pretend it doesn't
matter. I pretend
someone else will do.
I touch you. I ask you to
just lie on me - don't touch me
don't make love to me
just lie on top of me .
Your weight is almost too much
and I wonder if I want you
to stop me
from breathing.
I worry that you
won't go away
will you come back again.
I cry when you leave
and
I reprimand myself - how stupid this
is
after 25 years -tears flow
and I say stop it and I stop feeling
I am myself. I am another bird
who voices her existence at 4:30 in
the morning.
I am a large bird - my voice is large
and I wonder if that is why
you don't come often any longer.
I say "go away" - no I'm
kidding
I understand - come back when you can.
I say "go away" - no don't
take me seriously,
I'm kidding - I'm a bitch.
I say "God damn it - go
away."
No - don't - ever.
Just kiss me once more -
please once more - don't use your
hands
just your lips
I know - you love me.
I understand after 25
years -
you stay away because you love me.
I dream of another
who swims
into deeper water
and treads water while he kisses me.
I try to think of all
the others
I hope that one
will
fit a little snugger - a little
deeper
a little more comfortable than you.
I am by myself. I am alone
with my comfortable chairs
and the indented creases left
from the perfect fit of your mouth.
Half way mark of 2015
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